Wednesday, 2 July 2008

Stop smoking weed: DAY 2

It's now Wednesday the 2nd and I have relapsed.

Last night I had a bit of a fall out with the misses. I used this as an opportunity to get some weed and get stoned for the first time in almost 4 days. The longest time i've gone without smoking weed in 16 years.

I must say though, I could have left it there without touching it as the 'love' I had for weed smoking has definitely diminished. The THC levels in my body have depleted (a bit!) and I feel like I can achieve a lot more now. Time management skills have improved and I don't keep finding myself standing in a room thinking "What the F+?~ am I even looking for anyway?". That's an hour saved every day. I lost months to that shit man........

Digressing somewhat, the second day of my giving up went very well. No clucking for a joint, no moodiness and to be honest, I thought to myself i'd cracked it. Ridiculous, I know, But I felt very positive that It would carry on being that easy.

Then came day two without smoking weed. Woke up with a banging headache after one of the strangest dreams i've ever had before.

As soon as I got up I felt jittery and agitated and could see myself being a little snappy and a bit moody so decided to get out of the house and try to focus on my mission to stop smoking weed by going fishing. Not something I do much, but in a naturalistic kind of way, it's very peaceful experience. The whole world just kind of dissapears for a few hours giving you the opportunity to use your thinking time a little better....
Caught some good fish too.... (Anyone care??)

I came home with renewed enthusiasm to stop smoking weed for good that night. The headaches were, however, still there. It's like someone has placed a big bit of wood in the front half of my head. I never slept a wink that night and my brain felt like a smouldering circuit-board when day three started.

I must say ,at this point, that I believe everyone has the potential to stop smoking weed or to beat any other addiction they mave have providing that they stay focused and really want to achieve their goal. Much as in life itself. Still that's another debate, isn't it?

So, were at day 4/5 now. I bought an henry last night and am smoking it now. I feel stupid for getting it in the first place but am reluctant to just throw away a perfectly good bit of Harry. Makes a change to get a decent bit without any shit on it!

This may sound like a kop-out but I feel as though I have done the hardest part by stopping for 4 days. As I said before, the THC levels in my body have been the lowest they've been in years. Does that mean that I will be able to smoke this bag of weed without it building up in me enough to make me mentally/physically addicted to smoking weed again?? I think it does.

Any thoughts???

Anon

p.s to the guy that left a comment on my first post, I checked out the link you gave for the Canabbis Coach. Looks good. Could you tell us some more about it please? Is it worth the money?

9 comments:

Bartlomiej said...
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burnone said...

I've been blazin headies for 3 years str8 took a 2 month break and I never had any problems haha

wereweedoncewas said...

But you're smoking again now though right?? I got 13 years on you anyways. My brain is completely fried now. Beyond redemption maybe??

Be careful my friend....

Sue O. (aka Joannie, SS) said...

I found you via jonsjailjournal,but your URL link is not correct on that comment post and people won't find you by clicking on it. (It's blogspot.com, not co.uk) I think what you're trying to do is absolutely the right thing, but some questions, or suggestions, as I'm from America and whatever you want can be found in the Yellow Pages or on the web.

1. How serious are you-why do you want to quit? If you don't want it for you alone, you probably won't.

2. If you answer in the affirmative to doing it for you, who is helping you? Do you have a friend, a group, other people you are accountable to? Over here there are multitudes of groups to assist with overcoming addiction. I attend Celebrate Recovery, which has chapters in the UK.

3. If you've gone that far, have you seen a medical doctor, or someone who can help you with the physiological withdrawal? At least to know what to expect and what damage your body has suffered.

4. What is your style of using-are you a loner or group type person-who do you hang with if you're a groupie? What relationships are you prepared to drop to stay clean?

5. Is your family on board with this? (At least your significant other).

Some questions to answer and things to think about. Most addicts I've seen who come away from chemical dependency employ a variety of means. Willpower will not get you there. Or if it does, you are unusual. If you really want to quit, give yourself every advantage to stay clean.

Hope it works! (The blog's a great idea if you're serious).

Rosstafarian said...

Hi its Rosstafarian from 43things I realise the whole making up excuses to get high I've done it myself. Dude your not beyond redemption I went really fucked up when quitting I even ended up ringing the local mental institution, as I thought I'd gone permenently fucked because I didn't know quitting weed could do that.
And it's not how long but how much my mere 12 month spurt of smoking weed is nothing but considering how much I smoked, I probably smoked more in that time than most pot heads do in a lifetime. "will power won't get you there" "Or if it does, you are unusual" that's a crock of shit willpower is the only thing that will get you clean. It's ok having people support you but unfortunatly they can't quit for you and if you rely on your self there can be no excuses. I also helped another friend of mine get clean he did it without seeing doctors or groups because the thing that pulled him through was positive thinking and WILLPOWER! p.s I have every faith in you if your serious enough to write a blog I think your serious enough to quit YOU CAN DO IT :-)

medical marijuana card goodyear az said...

I cant find any bad effects on it. It depends on the smoker.

reginag said...

Still can't see anything wrong about it.

doctor

Gus Correa said...

I have been a skunk smoker for 20 years non-stop. I am on day two and freaking out.
I can't sleep, eat or remain calm. I am exercising, getting aspirins, but I really feel that might be impossible to stop after 20 years. I will try my best.
Don't listen to the potheads around, they never really stopped, so they don't know anything about it. I am sure they don't care about they wellbeing as I used to be.
WEED IS HIGHLY ADDICTIVE, JUST LIKE CIGS.

Anonymous said...

I have smoked weed since the age off 13 now 26 smoked a 10 bag a day 70quid a week!!! I have stopped smoking it for 9days now feel fresh tbf my head doesn't feel battered 24.7 and I'm no longer craving it most my friends smoke it and I live with someone who smokes it that was the hardest thing smelling it and craving it but once you get over that it's all good if anything starting to dislike the smell now.I also give up smoking cigarettes at the same time wanted to be smoke free lol which was harder than giving up bud. Only thing is I have proper messed up dreams now and remember them to detail never use to dream but it down to being to bashed!!